Overcoming fear is something I know a lot about. For the longest time, I was so afraid to talk about my spiritual emergency (not to mention the countless mystical experiences I had.) I went over them in my head trying to make them fit into some sense of normalcy and even after reading and studying so much, it just felt unsafe to talk openly about my beliefs.
It was almost like my soul was convinced that if I told the truth, I would be persecuted…again. This is a big reason why people who experience spiritual crisis hold back from sharing their stories, which can also stifle their healing process and a big part of what I help my clients with.
The journey of ‘answering the call’ is truly a long, messy road in which you are being forged and tempered by your very own wounds hopes and desires, not to mention the unpredictable blasts of spiritual consciousness – like the ocean pounding the shore – all of which work together to upgrade, heal and purge your system of old traumas.
It’s often not pretty, but of course, you already know that.
Shakespeare said, “To thine own self be true.”
But how does one begin to do that if you’re truth has been so invalidated?
How do you begin to follow your calling when you don’t yet know what it is?”
In order to answer the call, you first must be able to HEAR the call. Therefore, the first step is to restore your inner guidance system through building your body-based awareness.
What makes your body contract? What gives your body a sense of lightness and expansion?
At each and every moment in the day you have the opportunity to use your own body as a divination tool to guide you towards your purposeful path.
Remember, your life is a string of moments. Each moment you have a choice, and the consequence of that choice is who you are.
The body is a great tool for divination because it does not lie. The body transcends ego, the monkey mind as well as limiting beliefs about who you are and what you’re capable of.
Here’s a quick exercise you can do to help you (re)build your intuitive muscle.
To begin practicing, simply sit quietly and bring your awareness to your body. Do a scan from head to toe and see what you notice. Repeat in your own mind, “No! No! No!” Notice how your body feels. You will likely feel a contraction in your stomach, a sinking in your chest or perhaps a tightness in your neck.
Repeat the same exercise but now using the word “Yes! Yes Yes!” Scan your body notice the changes that you feel. Often people experience a lightness, a tingle an opening and a “leaning into.”
Back to the question of,” How do I follow the path when there’s fear and resistance and what if I don’t know the way or what choices to make?”
You follow the path by each and every moment choosing in the direction of your “Yes” and moving away from the things that cause you contraction, heaviness and pain.
Unbelievably, it’s actually that simple.
The more you practice this, the more positive reinforcement you will experience and the easier it will be to trust your “Yes” when it comes to making the big decisions.
If you can manage to stay out of the story, the reason and the justification for why it’s hard or why circumstances don’t allow you to do this or that and keep looking for ways to orient yourself towards the lightness and let that lightness be your guide, you have begun answering the call.
The only “call” you can ever answer is one that is deep inside of you. It’s not a mental construct about what you DO in the world. It’s a feeling you must learn to identify, trust and follow.
When you have lost the ability to trust in yourself and to hear your own voice guiding you, the easiest place to start is becoming reacquainted with your own body and use it as a compass to navigate the storms of fear, indecision and judgement.